Category: Shaheen

Shaheen (Part 11)

Shaheen (Part 11)

After valentine she got jealousy from Shikha. She snatched Yash from her. Whenever she came in class she only looked that Yash and Shikha were talking. Everything else in class was nothing to her. Result of all this was shown in her mark sheet. She was just passed in 9th class. She was a brilliant student but now she was below average. Shaheen didn’t mind the result. For her, everything was vain except Yash.

When her father saw the result, he didn’t shout this time. He became silent. After two days he was late. All were worried because from shop Rahmaan always come to home about 10 p.m. but today it was 11.30 p.m. and still he was out of home. Armaan went to shop at 10.30 p.m. and it was closed. There was no news about late coming. Raima was so worried that she opened the door when knocked once without asking who is there. But fortunately it was Rahmaan. He was drunk. Smell of liquor was coming from his mouth. Liquor is forbidden for a muslim and Rahmaan always obeyed that but today he left the rule. Everyone was shocked, Raima asked angrily and got a slap in answer. All three children were awaked but after seeing their mother slapped no one tried to go near their father.

Rahmaan went to bed straight and fell down on bed. He was asleep but no other in home was sleeping. Rahmaan was talking in sleep he murmured about going down business and the debt he took for home. Once he said about low marks of Shaheen. Tears came in Shaheen’s eyes. She was feeling that that this was the main reason her father started to drink liquor. She was responsible for all this. No one in home said anything to her but she knew from heart that her lower marks broke her father’s heart. He was expecting much more from her. She was the only brilliant student in her home and her father was hoping that she will do something big one day. For this dream he was fighting with his relatives and religious person and spending everything on all children study, else in Muslim family a girls study is really difficult and unnecessary.

Shaheen decided that she will gain her father’s trust again. When school began she forgot about Yash and concentrated on her study only. All students were same. Tanya was still her best friend and Rahul was still looking at her from distance.

There was nothing special in 10th class except pressure of study. Because board exam were coming this year and your option of choosing career depends on results of these exams. Yash broke up with Shikha. Before this Shaheen was not talking to Shikha but now she wanted to know. Yes she decided to forget Yash but it is really difficult to forget your first crush. Even her father’s liquor habit for which she believed she is the reason didn’t stop her to know about this. She and Tanya met Shikha and started to talk. It is really easy for girls to talk because when someone is talking then being a girl you must talk back. Shikha told them that yash wanted to have sex with her and she refused before marriage. He tried everything to convince her but she didn’t agree because she knew after getting everything Yash will not care for her. This was shocking news. She was thinking that Yash was really good but his intentions were full of filth. Indian girls respects their culture and their culture tells that only a husband can sex with the girl they must not allow other person even to touch. With time culture is change now, touching is not a big thing these days because you are studying in co-ed schools and going to offices for job but still sexual relation except husband is really bad.

This news was spread like wildfire. Every girl in class started to hate yash. Whenever he tried to talk anyone that girl ignored him. Once one of the most popular guys in class, became most hated person in class. Even his most admirer girls Shaheen and Tanya refused to talk to him. Nobody told her that Indian girl can do anything for their love but can’t allow anyone to put a figure on their family tradition and culture. That’s why it is popular that a girl enlightens her family name, she is the light of her family values and her character is the mirror of her family character. She is the base for two families once from birth and other from marriage.


Shaheen (Part 10)

Shaheen (Part 1)

He came back


Shaheen (Part 10)

Shaheen (Part 10)

So Shaheen started to live in her dream with Yash (Neither she has tell her feelings to Yash yet nor Yash has hinted anything like this to her). Her dreams cost her lot, her marks in midterm exam were very low. She didn’t tell this to her parents but she forgot that her sister was also in same school. His brother was ok he wouldn’t tell this to their parents as his marks were not too goo but her sister has decided to make her life hell. She told the result to their parents. Rahmaan was angry with Shaheen, it is the first time when he shouted on Shaheen. But it didn’t affect Shaheen much because she was in love, as per her view only. She was not smart enough in that age to know the difference between love and attraction. That’s why people says parents must be very careful in this age because teenage don’t understand but they believe that they know everything. Rahmaan was busy in his business which was falling down. Raima was weak and nobody was at home to help her. All children were their own. Samayra was not listening to anybody and Armaan was also happy with his friends.

14 February had come, the day for which every love bird waits Valentine day. Shaheen was hopeful that Yash will purpose her, else she will purpose him. But second option was impossible for her, a girl can’t purpose a boy. She was fully dressed up and looking stunning. From her street boys started to purpose her. Karim was standing outside his home and waiting for her. She knew his motives so she ignored his eyes gaze and start moving towards school. Karim came near and started to walk with her. It was normal two students were going school, he asked her whether she will be his valentine. She didn’t know what it’s mean but she didn’t want to be anything for Karim so she simply said no. Karim started to argue why not him? what is problem in him? Shaheen wanted to say that she loved someone else but he was neighbor and it will cause her a big trouble. So she simply said that she want to live alone. When Karim went a bike came near her, she knew that it was Ali and her guess was right. Ali held a single rose in his hand (this day rose becomes very expensive, prices goes high more than five times). He asked her to accept that but she ignored and told him to leave her alone. He asked can he drop her to school but she was not ready for that also. Ali keep his bike with her till she reached school. She saw some more street guys holding rose in their hands in the way. Actually this day has become the day when any guy can purpose any girl. Guys think that they can do anything on this day and it is allowed so sometime they crosses limits and it really put a girl in difficult situation. Some girls saw that Ali was with Shaheen, it was clear by the view that Shaheen was ignoring and Ali was just following her. But in teenage Shaheen was thinking that everybody will think that she is enjoying so she was worried. Her thoughts were troubled by the thought that what will happen if Yash will see this. Sweat came on forehead while reaching school she was searching for Yash. But thanks to Allah Yash was not there. She entered the school and Ali stayed behind.

Shaheen got a strange urge so she came back at the gate to look, Ali was purposing another girl with red rose. The girl was seemed uncomfortable, she was trying to go but Ali was on her way. At last school’s guard came in action and told Ali to go away. Shaheen said” Boys”

She came to class, two more student purpose her. She didn’t know them they were her seniors. Both came with rose and chocolate. Chocolate was Shaheen’s weakness she wanted to take the chocolate and throw the rose. But accepting chocolate was also bad as accepting rose from them. When she entered in class Rahul came and asked her to come in a corner because he wanted to talk to her. Tanya came near to her. Shaheen told Rahul to tell whatever he want to say in front of Tanya. Rahul was shy, with great difficulty he told” Shaheen, I always see you.”


“Ammmm…. Actually I was thinking.. means I want to ask….”


“I want to be….can we be friends.”

“We are in same class so we are already friends.” Shaheen was irritated because Yash was not in class and one more guy is trying to be smart with her.

“I mean not like simple friend… I mean”

“You want to be my boy friend?” Shaheen snapped.

“No no I mean …sorry, if you are hurt.” Rahul was puzzled. He was really bad with girls.

Shaheen and Tanya left him and went to their seat. Tanya was teasing her about Rahul. But Shaheen told her that Rahul is not her type. In the mean time she saw Yash was entering in the class with a rose in his hand. Shaheen’s heart skips one beat to see him.

Yash came to her bench and asked Tanya to move aside, Tanya was hurt but she left the seat. Yash set on her seat near Shaheen. He directly looked Shaheen in her eyes and said “Shaheen, I wanted to tell you from begning but was afraid that you will be angry. But now today my heart broke all the boundries and I want to be with you. Will you be my valentine for rest of my life?” Shaheen was on seventh sky, she couldn’t believe what is happening. His love himself came to purpose her. She said “YES”

“What?” Yash seemed confused.

“Yes” Shaheen said again.

“Hello, What Yes?” Yash’s voice changed into a girl voice.

The whole room was trembling like it was going to fall down. Shaheen opened her eyes and saw Tanya was shaking her. “What Yes? What are you talking about?”

She was day dreaming. Yash has come and set on his seat. A girl named Shikha was setting near him. She was also holding a red rose in her hand and they were talking happily. It seems one of them purposed and other accepted. Shaheen’s valentine day was over.

 Shaheen (Part 9)

Shaheen (Part 5)

But that was true

A typical Indian love story

Shaheen (Part 9)

Shaheen (Part 9)

Shaheen passed 8th but her marks were going down now. She had left interest in study. What is the benefit of her study? She couldn’t get admission in her favorite school. If she will top then also she will be forced to marry a stranger and left her wishes about career. These thoughts were stopping her from her study and even to try to fulfill her ambitions. Her parents started to worry because they were thinking high on her but Shaheen marks hinted to take extra care for Shaheen. Shaheen assured them that she will work hard but it was not full truth. Previous incidents had broken her will.

She was in 9th and her section was changed by school authority. She got new friends, she met with Tanya and became good friend with her. They spends their days with enjoy and fun. Boys were still interested in Shaheen but she was not interested. Sometimes she was surprised why boys like her? What is her main attraction but she didn’t find any. She didn’t like her body at all. “I am thin and my height is also not good, even my friends make fun related to my height sometimes then why boys like me so much?” This was the question she asked her many times. But there was one thing about her body which she also love very much her hair. Shaheen had long heavy black hair. They were long enough to touch her thighs. She was really careful for them. These were a problem also because she was getting problem to wash so long hairs so her mom usually helped her to wash them. But still she loved them and it was the main attraction of her beauty.

Shaheen was a teenager and in this age opposite sex attracts. In spite of horrible experience with Hussain, Shaheen was a teenage girl and her heart wanted someone for her. A boy named Yash got her attraction. He was very good looking and handsome. She got a crush on him. She was a girl and couldn’t say that to him. So every time he met her, her eyes always goes down. She wanted him to talk to her and like her but she was not able to express her feeling to him or anybody else. He liked her but not with these feelings he was seeing her like other girls in class.

There was a guy named Rahul in her class. He was really brilliant. His color was dark and he was not so handsome. Once teacher asked a question and nobody in class was able to answer except Rahul. Shaheen knew her but it was like other boys in class. Rahul seemed to like her but this was the problem of other guys also. Like Shaheen was searching chances to talk to Yash Rahul was searching chances to talk to her.

She told Tanya about her crush on Yash. She was surprised when Tanya told that she also liked Yash. She was kind of a girl whose liking was almost like Shaheen even in boys. Tanya didn’t object her choice but told Shaheen that it is not possible because Yash is a Hindu and Shaheen is Muslim. Shaheen knew that but she didn’t know what difference it makes. Tanya told her about difference between Hindu and Muslims. She told that it is not possible in society to marry in different religion and their parents will not allow this. She was sad but heart don’t listen any rules her attraction for Yash was not going down. She knew that Tanya is right about religion so her friendship with Tanya was still good.

One day she came to her home and found everybody was happy. Her father’s sister was at home with his son and a new bride which she didn’t seen before. She was surprised that nobody told her about her cousin marriage. They told that it was a love marriage the girl was Hindu. Her parents were not agreed so both ran away from home and did marriage in court. Now both are husband wife and nobody can argue on this. This was the reason they didn’t tell any boy or invite them to their marriage but now there will be reception and for that they have come to invite them. Everyone was happy but Shaheen was most happy by this news the first though which came in her mind that now she can marry Yash. Her family is not orthodox and they are not against Hindu-Muslim marriage. Now her love will win. Now first time in her life her religion gave her a chance to get what she loved. Her life is going to change now she will be happiest girl in the world.

 Shaheen (Part 5)

He came back (part 1)

Never tell a lie (Part 4)

Shaheen (Part 8)

Shaheen (Part 8)

Shaheen (Part 8)

Shaheen started to go school. Gulshan also joined and some other old school friends also met there. Actually the school was not famous or expensive, her previous school was also less expensive so all middle class family students were getting admission there and now they find the same standard school again.

Now she was in sixth class and in teen age. She was developing her body and she was really getting more beautiful. Boys started to tease her. Some of her school boys always came near her home following her from school. Shaheen was always with Gulshan. Some of them tried to purpose her but she didn’t like any. Her fright of boys was stopping her to talk to any boy.  Soon she cleared sixth class with good marks; she was topper of her class.

She and Gulshan came to seventh class which was a milestone in their lives. Rahmaan Hussain purchased a home in sharing with his cousin.  Now Shaheen had her own home, she was very happy but this home was far away from her school. She started to go to Gulshan’s home first and then both go to school. When Shaheen and her family shifted to new home one of neighbor was staring her. There was something in his eyes which Shaheen can’t forget. That was a strange feeling. But she ignored, the boy was big enough. He was in college; his brother was in Shaheen’s class but in different school. When they shifted they came to Shaheen’s home to know the neighbors. Shaheen got tuitions as she was getting problem in English. In her home her parents were not able to help her and her brother and sister were losing interest in study. His brother’s marks were getting low each time. She was the only one who was intelligent so Rahmaan Hussain decided to do whatever he could do for her daughter.

One day when she was coming from tuition a bike came very close to her. First she was afraid that it will hit her but it stopped near. The same neighbor who was in college was riding the bike, he told that he is going home and asked her whether she wants to come with her. Shaheen ignored. This became habit of that guy named Ali. His small brother Karim started to come at her home for study purpose. One day he came and when they started to study and Raima went outside Karim brought out a Red rose from his beg. He told her that he loved her, Shaheen was in difficult situation. She told him to put back that rose in his beg if her mother would come she will be in trouble. But Karim was stubborn. He started to insist to accept his love. Shaheen knew that if her mother would know her study will be stopped. She begged him but he was not listening her no. Gate opening voice came in their ears, it seems Raima has come back, Shaheen was statue with fear but Karim put the rose back in his beg. Raima came in room and saw Sweat on Shaheen’s forehead. She cleaned the sweat with her dupatta (a cloth which Indian female wear with suits). Shaheen was happy that her mother didn’t notice anything. Now she decided to not to talk to Karim and told her that he must not come to her home for study. It was strange Ali and Karim both were purposing her in their own way.

One day when she went to Gulshan’s home to take her to school. Her mother told that enjoy some more day after that she will not go to school. When Shaheen tried to ask Gulshan caught her hand and pulled her away from her mom. On the way Gulshan told her that her marriage was fixed and next month she will be married to Ahmad. Shaheen was surprised why so early. She asked that you are so young to marry but Gulshan told her weeping that she was lucky that Shaheen’s father understands otherwise in Muslim family marriage in younger age in not rare thing.

When Shaheen came home she asked her mother. She told her that it is normal. Girls are for marry and for take care of home. parents home is not their real home, their real home is their husband’s home, there a girl go in Doli and came on four people shoulders (means girl will left her husband home when she is dead only). She told her that it is their destiny. When Shaheen asked that will she be married in such younger age she told that no, if it will be in her power, she will not let it happen.

Next month arrived and Gulshan was married, Shaheen’s best friend left her forever. She went to her real home. When she was going in Doli Shaheen was weeping she was not understanding why a girl must left her home for the happiness of others. Don’t a girl have heart or they are just cattle whom can be carried away by any strange man.


Shaheen (Part 1)

He came back (part 4)

A typical Indian love story

But that was true

Shaheen (Part 7)

Shaheen (Part 7)

Slowly life started to come on tracks for Shaheen. Samayra was in sixth class now so she left primary school. Shaheen got some freedom. When Samayra was in school then Shaheen bunked the school very carefully. She and her friend Gulshan used to go outside through backside door. The door’s handle was broken so they easily opened the gate and went outside to play in garden. Before school closing time they returned to class. Now Samayra was not in school so Shaheen got less fear because Samayra could come to class anytime to check her. Boys were not the part of her group as she afraid of boys. She Gulshan and two more girls Sapna and Kiran were a group. After Samayra left school they normally bunked classes almost twice a week. Shaheen was intelligent but she was not interested in study anymore.

She and Gulshan came to school together. Armaan was with other boys company now. One day Gulshan was ill so she didn’t come. Shaheen was going alone. In way a big girl who was dressed like her sister new school stopped her. She told her that her sister sent her to take money from her. Shaheen, Samayra and Armaan all got money for some sweets in school canteen daily. It was a very small amount. Only four small candies or one big candy was affordable. So Shaheen was not ready to give her money to that girl for her sister. That girl slapped her on face. Shaheen was not ready for that. She was shocked what happened, while she was trying to recover one more slap caught her on head. She started to weep. She was small in comparison of that girl. That girl took her money and her geometry box which she got previous week only. Shaheen didn’t know what to do. She came school weeping. She told all this to his brother. Armaan asked the name of that girl but Shaheen was unaware of that. In evening she came home with her brother because of fright of that girl. They asked Samayra about that girl but she also didn’t know about that girl. So that mystery remains unsolved that who was that girl and why she beat Shaheen.

From next day Shaheen and Gulshan started to go together again. These type of small incidents keep occurred and Shaheen was growing. Next year Armaan also left that primary school. Shaheen was in fifth class now. She was bold enough for a girl but still afraid of boys. Board examinations were coming near and her bad marks in fourth class made Raima to compel Shaheen to study more. She told Shaheen that if she will not study then she will not get good marks then and if she didn’t get good marks she will go in her sister school.  Shaheen didn’t want to go in her sister school so she started to work hard and she got the result she was passed with distinction which was rare in her family. His father organized a party on her success it was also a rare thing to celebrate a girl’s success.

Samayra told that Shaheen was going her school, Shaheen cried and asked her mother. She comforted her that she will not go in her sister school. Her sister always teased her for that. Rahmaan went to a big private school with Shaheen. First school principal asked about their study and background. Rahmaan and Raima were not graduate and this was a big minus point in eyes of that school. Rahmaan asked principal that Shaheen was great in study and she got distinction. Principal was not impressed she asked that because they can’t teach Shaheen at home as they are not graduate they need to pay extra money for tuition fees for Shaheen. Rahmaan was agree on that. Then principal smiled and gave him estimation of all cost. She demanded thirty thousand as donation for school. This amount was like a small fortune for Rahmaan he was not able to pay that. Principal rejected Shaheen’s application. Raima begged to principal and show Shaheen’s marks again and again but principal was not ready to take Shaheen in her school without donation. So they came back empty handed and Shaheen was forced to go in her sister’s school. Her sister smiled and said “See, I told you that.”

These words always imprinted on Shaheen’s heart. She started to know how world is working on money power. She got good marks but still she was not able to get admission in her preferred school. The more she knew this world more she disliked this.

Shaheen (Part 6)

Shaheen (Part 6)

A shout stopped Hussain who was now opening his clothes now. Actually what happened that Molvi Sahab was teaching students and through window he saw Hussain and Shaheen going backside. So he came to check that where are they going. He came inside and caught Hussain by his shirt and pushed him stand up. Molvi Sahab slapped Hussain many times. When Hussain’s hand left her mouth Shaheen started to cry. Molvi Sahab helped her to get up and arrange her cloths. Her full dress was covered with dust and blood was draining from her mouth. Hussain got chance and he ran away. Molvi Sahab took Shaheen outside and immediately calls Rahmaan to come at once. Rahmaan was puzzled but by hint of urgency in Molvi Sahab voice he knew that something is wrong. When he came Molvi Sahab was outside with weeping Shaheen. He told Rahmaan all in one breath and told that Shaheen was safe. Rahmaan took Shaheen to home and told Raima all things. Raima checked Shaheen for how much Hussain did to her. She asked Shaheen what Hussain did to her. Innocent Shaheen told her that Hussain beat her. He tore her cloths. Raima wanted to know every detail but Shaheen was unaware of those things. She was confused why mother was asking so much; she never cared for her fight before. When Raima was confirmed that Shaheen is safe then she told to Rahmaan. Both took breathe of relief. Shaheen was still in shock. This was first time when she was physically harassed by someone. She didn’t know why it happened to her but this incident brought a fear for boys in her mind. She knew that boys are dangerous for her and they can do a big harm to her what harm she didn’t know; but her parents worry told her that harm can’t be cured easily.

Samayra also came home early. She complained why Rahmaan brought only Shaheen. Shaheen told her that Hussain beat her. She told her mother that she must complain to Hussain’s mother for this but her mother told that both must not tell anybody for this incident. Samayra understood what happened. Her mother slapped her also why she didn’t care about her younger sister. This made Shaheen wept more. Now both daughter and mother were weeping. Without any offence or mistake they were punished by a person and this was their misery that they even can’t complain for this.

Shaheen didn’t go to school and Madarsa for some days. Samayra also didn’t go for two days. She went first time when Armaan was ready to go but Shaheen started school after one week and she became ready to go Madarsa only then when Armaan told Hussain is not coming from that day.

Life started again but Shaheen was different now. A happy child becomes shy nature. She was afraid of boys. Mostly she was silent and if there is necessity then she talks only to girls. She stopped making new friends. Molvi Sahab was also not asking her much. She was surprised when her mother didn’t allow her to go to street to play. She argued that she didn’t do any wrong why she can’t go outside. Her mother didn’t answer her just told her to go inside and play with toys or do study. But time heals something not everything but something can be cured.

Shaheen was now allowed to go outside to play. She was shy and afraid. That one cruel incident changed her life forever. Only at eight year age Shaheen got the cruel truth of dirty desires of a man. She knew a man can harm her in such way that she can’t tell anybody. Nobody can help her after that even her parents and if this happened she can’t face the society only she will be locked inside her home to hide her face.

Shaheen (Part 5)

Shaheen (Part 5)

Shaheen was enjoying her childhood oblivious to all these things. She was busy in her study, fight with neighbor boy, playing with friends, learning to read Quran properly. So much was there to do, what a little girl can do after that. While playing football in Madarsa Hussain hit Armaan on leg. Hussain was wearing leather shoes so Armaan was hit hard. It was a mistake but impact was big for Armaan. He was getting problem in walking. Molvi Sahab called at home and Rahmaan came to pick his children. They took him to doctor. There was no internal damage but muscle of leg were torn slightly so doctor advised to take rest for 2-3 days. Now Samayra and Shaheen were going school and Madarsa alone. It was not fun for Shaheen because her brother was taking more care for her than her sister. Samayra’s nature was little different, she was happy with her friends. Armaan was different he was always careful for Shaheen that’s why Shaheen was saved that day from Hussain. Now there was no one to save her in Madarsa. Perhaps it was the plan of Hussain it was not clear.

Next day Shaheen and Samayra went to Madarsa without Armaan. Hussain was waiting for Shaheen as usual. He always played with Shaheen so nobody was taking care for this much. Samayra immediately mixed up with her friends andHussain got the chance he asked Shaheen to come with him to play again. Shaheen was ready on one condition. She told him that he will not touch her under her skirt. Hussain agreed at once. Shaheen asked Samayra about going. Samayra was busy with her friends. She listened half and told her to go and play. Hussain took Shaheen behind the Madarsa. There was a old room which was not in use from years. The door was broken. This was a dangerous building so nobody was allowed to go there. Hussain told Shaheen that he normally played here so Shaheen also agreed. In this small age children have curiosity for everything they can easily break the rules if someone inspire them.

Shaheen and Hussain were alone in the room. Hussain gave Shaheen a chocolate which was her favorite. She opened the packet and start eating. He was sitting on the dusty floor and asked Shaheen to sit but she refused as this will spoil her cloths and mom will beat her for this. So Hussain made her sit in his lap to save her cloths. Shaheen was eating chocolate and Hussain started to move his hands on her body. Shaheen tried to stop him but he gave her two more chocolate and told if she will not obeyed him then he will take chocolate back. Little Shaheen didn’t know what he is planning to do or what harm she can get by touching only. That time chocolate was more valuable for her. So she ignored his hands. Hussain got courage and he started to open her shirt’s button. Shaheen was small but she knew that it is wrong to remove cloths in front of others. She objected and handed back chocolate to Hussain. He didn’t stop and put his hand under her shirt. She threatened him that she will shout. Hussain put his hand on her mouth. Little Shaheen was unable to speak. Now her innocent brain knew that she is in danger. She started to fight with him. But she was small. Hussain hand moved under her skirt and removed her underwear. Shaheen was throwing her hands and legs. She pinched as hard as she could on his hands. She tried to bite him but her mouth was tightly closed. Hussain threw her on ground with one hand other one was still on her mouth. Now Shaheen started crying, no voice was coming out only tears were rolling on her white cheeks. Her defense was losing she was tired to remove his hands from her body. Hussain removed his hand from her mouth and put his mouth on her lips. Shaheen opened her mouth but Hussain bite on her lips. Blood started to run from her mouth. Her clothes were opened and she was helpless lying on the floor under heavy body of Hussain.

Shaheen (Part 4)

Schedule was really busy, and worst Shaheen didn’t know Arabi Language. Quran is written in Arabi language and Shaheen was not able to learn it. Her brother and sister were much better than her. Other students were making fun of her for her unawareness of language. In her home Arabi and Urdu was not first language and from heart she didn’t want to learn that language on her playing time; so half heart and comments of others made it more difficult for her. So she decided to play a trick. She went home and asked her mom whether she knew Arabi, as expected answer was positive. So she asked her to read for her. Raima started to read and quick Shaheen started to write that in Hindi language. So she wrote first page in Hindi in her notebook. Next day when she went to Madarsa, she surprised all by reading full page without any mistake. Everybody was thinking that she was reading Arabi, but truth was that she was reading in Hindi. This improves her position among other students. Now she was one of the best students in Madarsa who could read Holy Quran properly. On daily basis she was getting her notes from her mom and getting good marks in class. Even Armaan and Samayra didn’t know her secret. They were proud that their sister is so intelligent.

As a popular girl Shaheen was modest because she knew the actuality. Students were noticing her. One of them was specially doing this. Shaheen noticed that a boy who was elder than her about Six years was staring at her in class. She was a child so she thought perhaps he doesn’t know about class. So she ignored. Next day that boy came near and sits behind her. She didn’t object as it was routine to change seats. From that day that boy always sits near her. He tried to talk to her. His name was Hussain Khan. Shaheen was only eight that time. Everything was a play for her. Hussain was taking interest in her and trying to get near. She allowed her to play with her group. Hussain never missed any chance to touch her or catch her by her body in game. Shaheen was taking it casually.

School life was going well. Classes were interesting not due to study, they found new game which could be played on notebooks. So they were using notebooks not for study but for game. Many notebooks were disappeared in shape of planes. Pages were filled not by alphabets but by games words. They didn’t change their way to home yet. The only difference is that now they were not able to take their sleep at home after school because in evening they were supposed to go Madarsa. So they started to play at noon. One of boy in her neighborhood was always against her. She didn’t know why but he seemed to hate her. He always searched the chance to hurt her. One day he threw a stone to her. That stone cut her on her leg. Blood came out from tender skin. She cried and came home weeping. Her mother took it normally like nothing happened. Shaheen told her that that boy always against her. Her mother loved her and did nothing. She knew that it is only children fight. But this made Shaheen think that her mother don’t do anything against other children so she decided that she will not tell her mother anything in future.

Hussain was careful in this matter. When he was close to Shaheen no other was able to touch her and he was always with her from entering the Madarsa. He was bigger than any other so nobody wanted to fight him. From some days he started to touch Shaheen in class also. Shaheen was feeling uncomfortable sometimes, when his hands tried to move inside her cloths. She objected sometime by pinching him on hand. She was thinking that he was teasing her only because he was protecting her from everyone so she liked to remain near him. One day Hussain told her that he had a new airplane which can really fly. Shaheen was curious to see that. He told that he can’t show her here because other will break that. So they both bunked the class and went behind the Madarsa. Hussain had a beg in which he had a toy airplane. Shaheen asked him whether she can fly that but Hussain told that he needs to teach her how to fly airplane. She was agreed. Hussain gave airplane in her hand and started to move his hands in her skirt. Shaheen stopped him but he told that it is the way to learn. She stopped objecting and Hussain got chance to fulfill his dirty desires. He told her that there people will come and will see the method to fly so they need to go in some private room. Shaheen agreed because it was first time when she was about to fly an airplane. In the meanwhile Armaan became aware of absent of Shaheen in class. He asked Samayra also but she didn’t know also. So Armaan took permission of Molvi ji and went in search of Shaheen. When Shaheen and Hussain were going for some private he called her. Hussain was afraid. He told that they were playing. Armaan took Shaheen and went in the class after all he was also a child. That day Shaheen was saved by her brother but Hussain was still in search of his next chance which he was about to get really early.

Shaheen (Part 3)

Shaheen (Part 3)

Shaheen was spending her childhood easily. There was no tension. When Armaan started to play with her she forgot about that bad incident. When they return from school they never took the straight road, always came from a long route which comprises many streets and parks. They enjoyed to pluck flowers from school and parks, sometime they got caught in school and teacher shouted very much but that was also fun. Shaheen liked most to enjoy swing in park. On daily basis she went to nearby park and spent time with friends. When mother asked why they were late then the common excuse was there was an extra class. Her mother knew that there can’t be any extra class for these small children but she knew that they were enjoying in the way so she never argued and they always thought that their mother took their excuse truly.  Shaheen, Gulshan, Armaan and Samayra all four were a group while returning home. First they drop Gulshan to her home after that all three came to their home. It was a different matter that Gulshan’s home was far away from school in comparison of their home. Samayra and Armaan was very close to their lovely little sister.

On Sunday, she was ill so was at home. Some neighbor’s women came to her home. It is normal in India women gathered in one home and start gossiping, it is best time pass of ladies. While talking one of them start praising her son that he is really good in Urdu (a language, which Muslim speaks). She told that he can write Shayri (a type of poem) in Urdru. Now the subject of talking moved to children’s education of Urdu.

“Arey, Sister, what I should tell you. These days this new generation doesn’t respect elders and their values. Children don’t want to learn Urdu. They prefer English.” One of them spoke.

Other spoke in her favor,” yes, you are right. My Akram also feel shame in speaking Urdu. He says that it is not necessary. Now English and Hindi is new language. In school other students make fun of his wordings.”

“This new generation is going to hell. I don’t know what will happen to them. When they will not learn Urdu then how can they understand our culture and our values? Allah, forgive them and show them the right path.”

“What about your children, Raima? Are they learning Urdu?” one of them asked Shaheen’s mother and now the full concern of all ladies shifted to Shaheen and her brother and sister.

“No, I mean…..Yes, I am teaching them at home.” Raima hestily told them.

“But why you don’t send them to Madarsa (religious school of Muslims). Molvi Sahab will teach them accurately. My son is going there since he was five. Your Armaan is elder than him na.”

“They are small, I don’t think this is right time for them to go Madarsa. When they will grow up I will surely put them in Madarsa.” Raima protested weakly. In Muslim families religion is most effective and respectful. Everybody must obey that even they don’t like or those don’t match with current world behavior.

Shaheen was listening all this, she didn’t speak between them because she was told strictly in this tender age that when elders are speaking girls must not speak between. She wanted to argue because it was her life but she was silent.

In evening when Rahmaan came to home Raima told everything to him. She told that neighbors are making talks on this so it was decided that all three children will go to Madarsa to get knowledge of Urdu and religion. Next day Rahmaan went to Madarsa and arranged their training with Molvi Sahab. Immediately from next day all three were ordered to go to Madarsa. So now three small children’s life became busy, they came from school and in evening when the time was to play they started to go Madarsa. Shaheen was missing her games very much. She was ready to give anything to change this time from learning Urdu to Play time.

This was second encounter of little Shaheen with again not desirable culture.

Shaheen (Part 2)

Shaheen (Part 2)

Childhood of Shaheen was very happy. She had a big brother and an elder sister to protect and for love. She was the youngest so favorite toy of full family. Soon Samayra started her school. When Shaheen saw her going in colorful uniform, she always struggle to go with her. Both sisters wept. Samayra didn’t want to go to school and Shaheen wanted to go with her. Neighbors advised Raima and her mother-in-law not to send Samayra in big school as she is a girl. Why should spend so much money on a girl when she will go to other home. But it is Samayra fortune that she got nice parents like Rahmaan and Raima. They didn’t differentiate between Samayra and Armaan.

Time has wings it fly fast. Next year Armaan took admission in school. Shaheen became more upset, now she was alone in home. She was small enough to be kept in home. So she always runs here and there in home. Raima started to take extra care, not of Shaheen of things of home from Shaheen. Whatever thing comes in her small hand scattered in pieces within minutes.

As she was only child at home, she was star of her grandma’s eyes. But bad luck was also an essential part of her life. Her grandma closed her eyes. Shaheen was too young to understand but when all were weeping her tiny heart told her that something terrible happened. She also wept and when she didn’t find her grandma lap to hide from this sorrow she wept more. This sorrow made her ill. Now her parents were more tensed because they were dealing with funeral of mother and illness of daughter.

This time his brother took responsibility of her. He was himself very small but he was not intelligent in study but was capable of understand social responsibility. He left his school for some days and spent entire time with his younger sister. He played with her and took her outside to see market. Small Shaheen was happy now, his innocent heart forget the sorrow of grandma, but when she is at home she always went to grandma room to check whether she is there or not.

Time passed and Shaheen got admission in school. Her wishes to wear uniform and went to school in rickshaw completed. She was happy not only to join school by meeting and making new friends. In her home she was not allowed to meet other people very much. Here she got friends, a girl named Gulshan became her best friend. They always set together and took lunch from each other’s Tiffin box.

She was safe from bullies of his class because she had a big brother and sister to take care of them. So her life was going well. But when she was four and her brother was five something happened. Her brother became ill and didn’t talk to anybody. Her parents were taking care of him but didn’t take him to doctor. Shaheen was her favorite but he was not talking to her. He kept crying and weeping in pain. Next day, Shaheen tried to pull him from his bed, he refused. Shaheen was stubborn she pulled him with full might. But how much strength she got to pick her brother. She couldn’t lift her brother; lost control and fell on his brother. Her tiny hand touched him on his pelvis. Armaan cried in pain. Their mother came running and seeing this slapped Shaheen. Little Shaheen didn’t understand what she had done. She wept but her mother was not giving any attention to her. She was looking after Armaan. Even her brother didn’t take care of her. He was weeping. When she told this to her sister she told that Armaan bhai got Khatna. Shaheen didn’t understand what that was but she understood that something terrible happened to Armaan bhai.

After some days Armaan started to walk, it took about more than 15 days when he becomes about normal. This was the first tradition which Shaheen came to face and didn’t understand why it was necessary while nobody enjoy it or need it.